It’s Monday.

I woke up at  5:30 this morning. I chose not to workout. I could have, but I needed to start today slow. Real slow. I read a message today from a  (sort of) friend, he was looking for someone to do a job. I did something scary. I said I could do it.

I lost faith in myself and my ability a week or so ago. I stopped and had no idea why I am doing what I’m doing. Why did I choose to study what I’m studying? Why? When I am clearly incapable of doing it. I still don’t know. It’s been weeks and I still don’t know.

So, I did something scary.

I told him I could do it. I know it’s a lie, but perhaps this will lead to something good. Maybe it could lead to a little bit of faith.

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